Hello there internets!
I have been woefully inadequate in keeping up with the blog. I wish I could say that I had a good excuse for there month of June. I don’t. Really, I was just hot and cranky and desperate to get little CoCo on the outside. This led to some mood swings, what some might call a bad attitude, and some tears. I do, however, have a very good excuse for not blogging in the few weeks. Yup, CoCo is, FINALLY, on the outside.
I will save you the gory details, other than to say that it really was not as bad as I thought it would be. To be fair, I was pretty sure that I would hate every second of the delivery process. So my expectations were really low. Now, don’t get me wrong – there wasn’t much to enjoy really. It’s not like I want to do it again today. But it was not the screaming, drama-filled experience that is often portrayed on TV. As my mother would say, Thank G-d.
But turns out, having CoCo, whose name is not CoCo or Lemon or Tito or any of the other names I’ve used for her while she was in utero. Nope, she has a proper name, which, sadly, I won’t share here. But it’s cute. As is she. I’m sure that there is something genetic where women are programed to think their baby is the cutest baby EVER. Regardless, she is The. Cutest. Baby. EVER.
Anyway, because of CoCo’s arrival, I’m not sure how up on the blog I will be able to be. At least, right now, it’s a struggle to feed myself and her. And this is with my mom here providing much needed adult supervision.
Let me just say, having my mom here has been critical. Not only do HC and I know nothing about birthing no babies, this whole process is mysterious, overwhelming, emotional, time-consuming, and exhausting. Sure, there’s some joy in there too. Again, The. Cutest. Baby. EVER. But it is hard work dealing with an infant. I mean, the whole not being able to use your words to explain what you need it a massive challenge.
But my mom has been a champ. Cooking, cleaning, doing laundry, dealing with the baby, dealing with me, dealing with HC. Seriously, this woman is a machine. She has done more laundry since she’s been here than I’ve done all year. It’s crazy. But it’s so helpful. I haven’t had to think about any of these things, yet still I’m exhausted. Things have been complicated by a bout of mastitis that led to an ER visit. All of which sucked and continues to suck. A lot. But my Energizer Bunny mother has been on top of everything, including 3am feedings. I don’t know where that type of energy comes from. Maybe it skips a generation.
Anyway, I will try to post more regularly, but we’ll have to see how things go. In the meantime time, hope you’re staying cool in this awful heat!