I have survived my first week of work and can tell you one thing definitively – I don’t hate this job.
This is more than noteworthy for me. Shocking in fact. Typically, by some point on Day 1 or 2 I’ve decided that I am not long for this place, and/or I can’t stand at least one – if not more – of my coworkers.
Well, hell hath frozen over, folks. After a full week of working in close quarters with these people, not only do I not hate the actual work associated with this job, I still haven’t found anything to dislike about anyone I work with. Heck, I might actually want to be friends with these people.
Pause here for a second.
ALJ has already inquired as to whether I’ve found my BFF. Let’s not get ahead of ourselves.
Those of you keeping up know that my friends have a theory – and I don’t think they’re wrong – that I need a work BFF in order to find any joy from my work experience. Now, it’s not like I just pick anyone to be my work-BFF. I take my time and make sure it’s not just my need to walk with someone to get lunch, but instead there is real compatibility. I mean, I am ultimately looking for an actual friend and not a “work” friend.
So, ALJ, to answer your question – no, I haven’t found my BFF yet. But I’m in no rush to find one. I like everyone enough that – wait for it – I might not need a BFF at this job. Stranger things have happened.
Anyway, back to the original point of this post. I don’t hate this job. But there have been a number of annoying issues that have surfaced.
- I still haven’t remembered how to work. Luckily tho, things are so busy that I can’t think too hard about this.
- I still haven’t remembered how to be busy and do the things I want and need to do. Here too, luckily it’s so busy that I don’t have much time to think about this. The days just fly by. But to realize that I haven’t actually done anything, haven’t really accomplished anything, that I mostly just played defense all day, is frustrating to say the least.
- Building on point 2, I haven’t figured out how to find time for friends. I have to decline g-chats or cut them short. I go hours without responding to BB messengering. I barely have been able to email. Forget about the phone. Just ask HC who has been rushed off the phone every time he’s tried to call me. And it’s not just the folks who don’t live in DC who I’m struggling to stay in touch with. I’m struggling to talk to and see the folks who live here. Hell, I’m struggling to find time to see the folks who work in the building next to mine! That is fucking ridiculous. And don’t think folks aren’t noticing. I’ve already heard things like, “I already don’t like this new job of yours” and “I don’t like how busy you are.” Hopefully this will work itself out as I remember how to work and how to be busy. I mean, it’s got too. Right?
- I still haven’t worked out the sleep issue. I’m exhausted when I get home – you know, because it’s been months since I’ve had this aggressive a schedule (yes, 10 to 7 is aggressive, I don’t care what anyone says) – and want to go to bed by 10pm. Problem is that I will wake up at 5am or earlier. But I don’t want to get up at 5am because it just seems so damn early. So after laying awake in bed for say an hour and a half, I fall asleep. Then I struggle to get out of bed at 8am and am rushing out the door, you know, to BE THERE BY 10AM! What the… I’ve got to figure this out. Or I have to just get up at 5am. Because…
- I still haven’t figured out how to incorporate the gym into my daily routine. This is disastrous. Not only for my ever-growing waste line, but also for my mental health. Yeah, other things are going well for me. But without the gym, things will only deteriorate. Maybe I will just have to go to the gym at 5am. It’s not like I’m asleep or anything.
I’m sure there’s more, but this is all I can think of right now. I’m hopeful that I can work them all out in the next few weeks. Especially since there’s a recess coming up and my office is closing for several days. Ya gotta love religious holidays!